Well I thought of joining to court the favor of my girlfriends parents who are JW's. (selfish motive) My girlfriend however is a "non practicing" witness but her parents are definitly the real thing. So I took the literature and it sat around my house for a few years I pick it up and read it and I got confused everytime. I was a christian, but in the very since of immature. So these ideas were definitely not what i grew up believing. So I could never embrace what was said. So I prayed for spiritual help. I started to read the gospel of Matthew Mark Luke and John in a non JW Bible and I the truth was displayed before me. So i realized that me professing to be a Christian but not walking the walk was definitely not good testimony. I try to read the bible daily and I started attending a local church. God has opened doors for me and things that kept me in bondage have no desire in my life (alcohol). I had been shutting Christ out of my life and when I look back that is when most of the undesirable parts of my life took place.
I have tried to share my testimony with my girlfriend of 5 years but her ears seem shut. She doesnt want to talk about "religion". I love her very much. This grieves me. She said to me that when she noticed a difference in me and my attitudes and speach it was the first time in 5 years that she felt we might not make it as a "future" married couple.